One missed session on my part was tolerated, but he got a free day plus the day I missed. Two missed sessions in one month meant I had to return with him to his dungeon for a week of intensive training. Three missed sessions in one month meant I no longer wanted to see him as a client and my stuff would be vacated from the building, the locks changed. In between sessions with Mr. Old Cock, I posted escort ads online and continued to look for porn gigs while I began to explore San Francisco.

On the corner of Mission and 17th a Latino dude wearing a black flight jacket and baggy jeans stood outside a liquor store; I approached him and asked on a whim if he knew where I could get an ID. He sent me three blocks up and told me to go into a drugstore and ask for Juan. I used some of the money I stole from my parents and some of the money Mr. Old Cock gave me and gave Juan a hundred bucks then went with him to a back room, he took my photo and twenty minutes later I was legal.

I went home and turned up my computer speakers as loud as possible and played Psychic TV “Roman P” on repeat. Are you free are you free are really really really really really really free Are you free are you free are you really really really really free Is it you or is it me or is it simply history. Stretched across my bed, opened up my notebook and scribbled faces across the page. La la la ommmmmm la la la la la ommmmmmmmm. The lines on the notebook paper cut through my squiggly smirking faces Are you free are you free are really really really really really really free. I scribbled curly hair on top of each of the faces' heads Life of money life of Sex sex sex life of honey life of X x x. None of the faces looked remotely human so I wrote ALIEN on top of the page and gave each face multiple arms and legs Are you free are you free are really really really really really really free. Some received Life of money life of Sex sex sex life of honey life of X x animalistic limbs Are you free are you free are really really really really really really free. Pulled out a green marker and began coloring each face green Little girls drinking eating cupcakes. My brand new ID lay next to me on my bed; it glowed as righteously as a planet one spent countless light years moving towards little girls cause you the biggest mistakes. Are you free are you free are really really really really really really free I leaned back from my drawing and tossed my legs up over my head is it you or is it me or is it simply history, my feet clung to the walls as I propped myself on my shoulders to stare at the ceiling. The music and aliens whirled through my brain Is it you or is it me or is it simply jealousy.